Life is Nothing Without Love

bulan satu permulaan tahun 2012 adalah bulan exam.haiyap!memulakan tahun baru dan bulan baru dengan rasa stress terhadap peperiksaan.moga Allah permudahkan urusan kite semua.ameen. for 2012, I need to be a better person. Banyak perkara terjadi sepanjang tahun 2011. Ada yang pahit, ada yang manis. Tapi personally, 2011 not the best year for me. Banyak pahit dari manis. Apapun, semua itu dah berlalu. Not many aware how miserable our life is and how we need an attention so much tetapi semua tu hanya dipendam di dalam hati sahaja. flashback January well, after mid term break tu i'm missing sir aziha so much.. time ni mmg x keruan sebab kena masuk kls lain.. February isu kawan. hidup my clasmate yg suka berpuak puak. soal hati dan perasaan. muncul plak pasal "sang arjuna", kerinduan tak terhingga kt seri iskandar. miss mr.fallinginlove so much. Mac just rse rapat sikit ngan sang arjuna. hang out together. makan makan. pergi karoeke.. support dia dl...

“I’m not going! From the beginning, you were music to me, and music was you. That’s why I came this far. If you’re not there, there is no music.” – Sam dong(dream high) to kill my time i decided to watch dream high..unexpectedly i became more drawn to this drama and because of my 'plenty of free time' i managed to finish this 20 episode drama just within a day... amazing huh..huhu.. i think the best actor in this story ('best' in this term mean my own choices of actor or my personal preference) is Kim Soo Hyun who played the character song sam dong... to me his acting was superb in this drama.. but of course all the other cast played their role very efficiently.. in this drama, many says that hye mi is suitable with either jin gook or sam dong (but again because my own preference or the fact i really not fancy 2PM) i think the 'hye mi and sam dong' couple in the end of the drama is perfect..huhu. overall this drama is 'daebak' as it made us dream...

Dear mr. bloggie.. Ikut my plan, today I supposed to finish up my report and slideshow for BEL presentation this monday.. well, i admit that sometime I'm like a little bit bossy. actually I don't mean to be like that but because of "they" make me in this condition, so it make me become like this and like that. actually, I just can't wait.... waiting make me feel like a dumb person.. especially something that I'm waiting for is related to my work.. OMG.. I'm so furious with people that always make me waiting.. actually I tgh tunggu emel salah sorg from my group assgment to emel the info that I want to use in order to finish up my report. I'm waiting and waiting but still x dapat.. then dia cakap she already send it.. two times already... for me, it's better if it goes to the group assignment, we sit and do it together.. xde la time consuming sangat cam ni... nk tggu sorg2 e-mail pun da bpe lme... waiting such a fool person je.. then nasib ade kje l...

I was happy for no reason. I was just happy.I was tired, but that didn't matter.

mmg kdg2 org x pernah pun peduli masa kte.. yg dia tau masa dia je... and yes, u are right sir...

mr.fallinginlove.. you r the one that always crossing my mind. even macam2 prob yg I lalui, but when igt kat U, trus lupe sume prob tu.. semua ingatan terhadap u still segar di ingatan I even almost 2 years ago. bila I rindu, I always open your wall.. sometimes i feel jeloaus when I read all your students comment but I da x jealous mcm dlu lg.. i'll be more matured now. kdg2 rse teringin sgt nk post something on your wall.. nk post "I MISS YOU <3 skunk nih mr.fallinginlove da tkr bilik kot. ADM2011.. hahah.. i ni memang stalker yg berjaya kn? muahaha~ p/s: ‎I MISS YOU BADLY BUT I AM AFRAID TO BOTHER YOU WITH MY TEXT. however, when i see u online, i read your status, i saw your picture.. and remembering all the things about you makes me simply forget all the problems that I'm facing. maybe confession tu da x pnting kot,, but maybe penting.. sigh!

i don't live to impress people,i blog just to express myself,i ain't seeking for attention. i tried to be modest,eventhough i ain't denying that i learned to be perfect. I ni jenis pendam ape kawan buat kat I. Well, kita semua tahu kan bila pendam jadi dendam. Tapi I takde lah berdendam. I just fikir bila lah nak berakhir ni. perangai kawan2 kadang2 menyakitkan, I memang akui benda tu. Memang susah kalau kita ni pendiam, lepas tu dapat kawan talkative and lagi sorang pun talkative. jadi dunia ini milik mereka berdua saja lah.. I yang pendiam ni ibarat tak wujud pun pada saat dan ketika itu... memang december nih bulan yang malang untuk I.. hari2 I menangis disebabkan segala ujian dan dugaan hati. i'm suffered a lot with the issues of that lecturer.. and then now, I terasa hati sangat dengan 2 orang kawan I ni.. kteorang pergi shopping complex, then time jalan2 tu I rasa terasing sangat sebab dorang macam buat I ni xde. dorang just jalan berdua.. borak berdua. cak...

Td, was the worst nightmare ever dlm kamus hidup i.. U know what, FS dgn banggannye tunjuk mkwe dia depan I. ok, sbnye cmni... firstly I temankan kawan I pegi print, then tetiba dia msk gak utk print.. tetibe tergesa2 nk kuar... ble msuk blik bwk plak si patung tu.. wattaaaa...... dah la dok tenung je I.. igt I nk sangat ke ngn pakwe you tu.. please la.. dah la xde msa depan.. umo da tua bangka, but still lagi igt diri tu bdk2.. perangai x semegah.. meniru sana sini..menipu itu ini.. then lps ni ape plak! klau dia jd laki kau skalipun aku x hairan la.. laki mcm dia tu belambak tepi jalan.... setakat org mcm tu tak payah nak show off sangat la... "die msti nk bawa sara masuk skali nk2 lg u were there. karang mati nk jwab ngn sara tibe2 u ad kat dalam skali, org freakingly coward biasa la. what feeling? jalani dgn sabar. tu jela mampu org ckp. i have certain feeling that i feel like to throw kat ombak bsr tu rite now but i have no other choice than to FEEL IT. " (Dyn,201...

hari ni kls habis awal sebab lecturer kteorg merajuk. lecturer merajuk? Hurm. kalau lecturer merajuk, memang susah nak pujuk. Lagi lagi lecturer tu lelaki. Masa time diploma dulu, ada la beberapa kali lecturer merajuk..selalu kes dia tanya pastu student tak bleh jawab...ada yang stop mengajar sampai la kami dapat jawab dengan betul...ada yang terus keluar dari kelas...selalunya lecturer perempuan la... da banyak sebenarnye I pendam about this lecturer. dulu dia la lecturer kesayangan I kt kampus nih... tapi sekarang dah tak kot. btol kata orang, if kta sukakan seseorg tu, jangan suka sangat sebab satu hari nanti kita akan benci sangat2 kat dia. I pelik sangat dengan dia sem ni. banyak sangat berubah. bla time ajar kat kelas tu lau bley nak fokus kat laki je, if sorg tak datang, perasan je.. maybe sebab dorg sikit, but kteorg prempuan ni terasa sangat bila dia asyik fokus kt laki je. but what we can do? and then, every time quiz or test dia tak nak jaga.. dia suh kakak dia jaga kteo...

kawan-kawan, kadang-kadang ade mende yg kite ta sedar kite sdg sakitkn ati kawan kte. iyee, gelak, snyum stiap kali kite bsame , tpi hati org kite ta boley bacekan. spe tau die terase. spe tau die tgh menangis kat dlm , tpi tade org dgr. ta suma kite boley bwk bgurau sbb ta suma kawan yg openmind mcm korg, ye saya mengaku hati ini terSGTla sensitive. rindu the OLDFRIEND of mine, rindu skola SMKTS, rindu seri iskandar, trse lain bile ade kwn baru dkt sni. tataula knpa ssh sgt nk trima cara dorg bkwn,,,saya mengaku saya terSGTlah sunyii tnpa kawan~huhh

esok quiz? YES, esok QUIZ 2 DATABASE. my "favourite" subject ever. OMG. mcm mne nih.. This is the killer subject for me kot. for the first quiz pun I dah failed, then test xtau pe citer coz that lecturer don't give back lg and now quiz 2 plak. mmg 2 chapter je msk, but for this 2 chapter, dah mcm 4 chapter. pjg, byk and complicated. plus lecturer tu strict giler in marking paper.. so,I xtau nk ckp ape.. sometimes I wish sume lecturer I mcm Dr.Baharom and Sir Aziha.. dorg mmg baik hati ble marking paper. asalkan kte faham, even use own word..its still accepted. x mcm lecturer dtabse nih.. ayat nk copy paste dr bku. tertnggal 1 word, trus salah. whatthe...... td time kls dia, I mmg malu gler. dia suh sume diri then soal, sape dpt jwb bley duduk.. but I the last girl yg dpt duduk kot... time tu I rse cm I la bdk yg plg x pndai.. dah la quiz failed.. ble soal lak xdpt jwb.. ok, fine... I mengaku yg I mempunyai short termmemory.. i can't easily memorize without looking...

"Life is too short to waste on hatred and anger. Just move on. Restart your system by forgiving and forgetting all the mistakes others did to you and the mistakes you did to yourself. Look for peace and happiness and surround yourself with positivity. Keep your faith in god up all the time. Insyaallah, things will only get better. Salam Maal Hijrah." (mr.fallinginlove, 2011) Salam maal hijrah to all of you. Hope this year was better than before, struggling more for upcoming exam. Need a lot of friend from the dictionary to make the book works for me. time flies, with so little time, and so much to do.. p/s: mr.fallinginlove Saya sebenarnya suka awak , tapi malu nak luahkan siapa saya nak tegur awak. siapa saya nak tengok awak. siapa saya nak suka awak. siapa saya nak rindu awak. siapa saya nak mesej awak. siapa saya nak cinta awak. siapa la saya kan :(

well, i'm tired already with all the assignment, quizes, test, presentation and whatsoever.. report. assignment. report. assignment. report. assignment. report. assignment. report. assignment. report. assignment. report. assignment. presentation. test. presentation. test. presentation. test. presentation. test. presentation. test. 27 submit group assgnmnt 29 presentation, submit report. 30 submit assgnmnt 1 quiz 2 4 submit individual asgnmnt 5 test 6 Progress test 7 test 2, submit 11 Quiz 2 13 submit group asgnmnt 14 presentation beshnye kalau mr.fallinginlove is here and can help me buat report and so on.. yes, I need someone that fluent in english.. yes, he is.... mr.fallinginlove. i miss you. I miss u and need u more than everything. I really need to see u. I hope, i still have a chance for "one fine day" sb now i'm VERY, VERY busy.. mOod: Physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted. :/

Cry...Cry...Cry...that’s what I have been doing. i think i need a major make over on how my brain functions nowadays or lately...i've been worrying about something or someone too much...i've been worrying about EVERYTHING too much and its slowly eating who i real am away.... well, thank you so much to mr. Harry and Mr.Theordore. they make me wanna cry every day. every act that they do simply make hurt. yes, it is unpredictable. how someone use to be too close to me become that way.. i'm very frustrated with them.. ye la, dlu layan macam tuan puteri.. tapi sekarang ni cm ape tah. Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated? I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else. Gets me frustrated. what does they wants me to do? What did i have ever done to them....? i'm so confused and i really hate this kind of situation..it makes me want to not be related to them in any way... but i dont know... i'm not the type of person who throw awa...

Hye u all. petang-petang camnih rasa nak update blog pulak.xtau la, rasa kosong je hidup ni.. teringat kat seseorang pulak. yes, mr.fallinginlove ~ well, i never told him dat i like him and so whatever. so he dont know what i feel about him. muahah ermm.. i rase kite perlu luahkan perasaan kat orang tuh apa yang kita rasa sebelum terlambat. walaupun result yang kite dapat tu will hurting us. its okay mean dat we brave for luahkan to person who we like or love kn... but I ni ckp je pndai.... i'm still looking for one fine day. Oh God, please give me the way to confess to him. Kita hanya merancang tapi semua perkara da tertulis. hanya ALLAH saja yang menentukan segalanya. mungkin ALLAH akan beri kita yang baik lagi terbaik. insyallah.so kita perlu berdoa dan sentiasa bertawakal dalam apa jua yang akan berlaku. okay. :)

I'm a type of girls who not easy to fall for someone,but not so hard too. the hardest part about fall for someone is starting first. i don't know what should i do, always facing two options. first, should i show my feeling to him?or second, should i keep waiting and hope until he will like me too? if i think about that, i don't know what is the correct one because if i show my feeling, i think it isn't good enough for girls to show it first, it's like too aggressive -.-" and i don't like being like that. but why some of my friends have different opinion from me? some of them choose to show it for example, when the boy's birthday she called him first and made a cake by herself. if she is his gf or his crush it isn't a problem but if she's just his friend does it sound too exaggerate?when the result is the boy fall for her too, it's good. but how if the boy feel disturbed by her act?the second option, if i keep waiting when will the boy see me...

Waiting for the right time, the right place and the right moment for HIM. :-) p/s: I wish that you can sneak into my heart and know what my heart says

Helloooooo bloggers.I'm back.OhmyGod! I miss blogging, like crazzyyy =.= And and I miss you, you, eh you and you, em all of you laa ;D and you know you miss me, xoxo HAHA dear mr.fallinginlove, My eyes may not see you everyday, My ears may not hear you everyday, My voice may not reach you everyday, But, my heart prays for you everyday. May Allah guide you everyday and keep you safe, happy and successful in every way insyaAllah. #confessiOn one fine day *_^ yes, I'm still waiting for one fine day to confess everything to mr.fallinginlove.

It's not that I have feelings towards you or jealous, hell no. tp agak2 la kn. smpai your gf ckp you ckp kt dia you serabut ngn i. what the..... what did i do? I x pernah pun terhegeh-hegeh, tergedik-gedik ngn you. ape yg serabut sgt? or awek you tu saje je reka cerita? And thanks, you're the *I'm not sure yg ke berapa, did prove to me that guys, they are all just the same. *okay maybe most of the guys. But somehow, it's a good thing for me. From time to time, I get to know guys better. Till sometimes I doubt every single things that they say. And I wonder, am I going to find the REAL one for me in future? I mean, the one that really cares about me and treats me well and and will love me with all his heart? :/ But yeah, still, long way to go. Live my life to the fullest :D p/s : I'm not going to fall for anyone ever again. But, mr.fallinginlove.. I will love you till forever and ever. and I wonder, do you (s***) still read my blog, like you used to and do you stil...

hye peeps!!! i'm in real mood to blog cause i have tonnes to write,i mean to type it here. eventhough i know i will cut short in the middle,forgetting every single words that browse through my mind since morning on what shall i write here. typical me. and oh do you know my current obsession now? I'm obsessed with Kim Hyun Joong. i'm too much obsessed with this dude. but i tell you,he is nowhere compared to mario maurer? ohmaigod i can't believe i get so excited talking about him. i'm so much indulge by chocolate indulgence these few days i might throw off now. ps: told you i will end the post halfway,i've forgotten already. screw me.

Yes!!! i'm officially SINGLE and AVAILABLE.. cewah.. cam nk promote diri je kn. well, what I want to share today is actually cite yg mmg dr sem lps I nk share. tp blm ade kesempatan. but, now I dah ade kesempatan. first thing first, I wanna ask u.. what do u feel if all of your friend has their own partner or boyfriennd but you are not. you are single? mesti la rsa nk ade boyfriend jugak kn. sometimes we just have to happy to see others happy with their life but ape plak kata hati? yes, hati yg selalu meronta-ronta menginginkn seseorg. even tak penting pun utk ada boyfriend, but ble dah hari2 tgk kwn baik dating, gayut and whatsoever.. sometime, rsa iri hati mula tumbuh. i mean, kdg2 rsa mcm xde privacy langsung dgn kwn tu sb everytime kuar nk kne ade bf dia. yes, utk dia..bf dia tu mmg pnting smpai pergi mne2 pun mesti nk kne bwk or ada skali. if xde,this life is so boring... but what about me.? dorg x pernah rsa ape yg I rse. dorg x prnah tau ape yg I rse. I dah cube nk ...

yEs, jahatnye dOrg sume nih. siapa dorg ni biarlah rahsia. but i feel so hurt because of them. senang kan nak buat orang happy, tapi orang tak tau, dalam hati ni, sakit macam dah potong potong hati ni jadi 15 kerat sampai tak boleh nak cantum balik. Ermmm...Damn! ingat i bodoh ke?! uit tetibe je nak mara ni apsal. huhu. mmg wat i hot chili pepers sekarang ..huh. n dalam2 hot i nih i sedih sangat-sangat n kecewa coz de orang yang wat onar psal i. geram tahap gaban da tau x.. sekarang ni rasa nak tumbuk2 dinding pon ade. tapi relak la, xpasal2 tangan i yang bengkak-bengkak xley lak nak menaip. hahahah. rasa xnak la kecoh-kecoh tapi rasa hati ni nak berbicara di dalam blog ni. rasa tenang kot tulis kat lam blog nih. lain orang lain cara die nak luahkan rasa pe yang terpendam . tapi i nak tulis gak kat blog ni xkire. hahahah....ermmmm. geram n benci!!!. arghhh. nape la benda ni jadi kat i. n nape la "die" ley masuk dalam dunia i. aish!. i benci 'die' sangat.. why ...

ensem kan Incik Ariz ni?? haha. picture nie I curik dari Fb die. hikhikhik. Sorry Ariz Lufias. saya minat awak! >.<" so, yang tu je la I nak share ari nih. ~they said that in this world there are two kind of happiness. one kind of happiness is you only know after the moment has passed,and the other is a happiness that you feel in the moment. that happiness you feel in the moment is so precious. they also say that the memories of this kinda of happiness that can stay with you and enlighten your life.maybe we can turn today into the kind of happiness you feel in the moment,so that we can remember this happiness for the rest of our life.

Today was the best precious feeling that i ever had even it takes just about a minute. :-) I'm very happy today to be with him for presenting an assignment. sape lg if not FS. before we start our presentation, kteorg prepare nk ckp ape. and for that I have to pretend like everything is ok. but actually I ignore je my feeling sb I tau I sbnrnye bkn sukakan dia. beside that, ade something yg I x sdr and I buat. I x perasan yg kwn FS perasan I perhatikan FS masa FS nk duduk tmpat dia. ye la, FS duduk dpn I sblh kwn dia tu. then tetibe kwn dia ckp "tergoda la tu.." what the.... haha. so funny kn. MR.FALLINGINLOVE,.I miss yOu kot, but what can I do???

before 1 a.m td dia dtg uma I. him again. FS. haha.. but mlm ni mood dia sgt baik. so i'm happy cause I see sparks fly whenever he smile :) the end-

How hard we chase for what we desire but things end up running away and away from us? It's about love thingy. today is the day of HER. ok, fine. she is your girlfriend. so what? i'm tiring with all this mess. sms's, gayut tepon, usik2 nme tu.. ape lg.. sume support la you with her. sometimes I wish I can go and scream to them and say "stop toying with my feeling and whatsoever." mmg dia usik theoldman a.k.a sang arjUna but it's like just want to hurting me. You know, I mean they sengaja usik theoldman when I'm around them. it's really killing me kot. I don't know how my facial expression in that time but its really annoying me. trus xde mood bile sebut2 sal gf theoldman. This is fate. What The Greatest Creator has planned for me, that's how my life should goes on. No point to regret. So why don't I just pray, sit back and relax, let go and let Allah takes over the thing for me. Anyhow, He knows I've given whatever it takes to kee...

salam. hey readers, today i'm happy because FS just show me that he use my lanyard.. well, eventhough it's not so expensive but at least he appreciate it right? but he's not use that to wear his matric card.. as i told before, he already bought new lanyard for his matric card.. he use my lanyard to hang his home key.. huhu.. that's all for today ;)

well, today I want tell a story about "lanyard". lanyard? haha.. sounds funny but it's so mean. actually, last wednesday, I has bought a lanyard for sang arjUna. y? sbb dia xde tali utk pkai kad matrik dia. kad matrik tu dia smpan kt dlm purse je kot. then when every lecturer tnye dia bru nk terhegeh-hegeh keluarkan... and disebbkn itu, I belikan dia lanyard. x cntik and mahal mane pun but I really ikhlas. actually, I just nk suruh kwn I je yg bg and let him guess sape yg bg but then yesterday I dapat tau dia dah beli lanyard angry bird warne hijau.. then I make a decision to bg kt dia face to face. nothing special pun sb first2 we talk about out project assignment and then dia tnye "ade apa2 lg?" then I ckp "ade" then dia ckp "ape?" I jwb "nah, amiklah." smbil bg. dia tnye "ape ni?" and then I ckp nnti bkak la.. x lawa tp ikhlas.." spontaneous je kot sb I dah x tau nk ckp ape.. then we end our conversation... hmm....

well, not all people understand what we experience. sometimes we seem ok, but only God knows. sometimes we hurt, sick, miserable and sad. I'am alone...........though i share everything but no one undrstand me. no one can understand me, my pain that is hidden behind my smile, and unsaid words that's hidden in my heart. why it is so.....:-( i wish to die at times cause i have problems and no one can fix or understand me so i wish to die cause i think thats the easier way. everyone wants me to understand them, but no one can understand me! I'm really2 miss my old friend. my Seri Iskandar's friends. yes, I really need you. miss M.. miss A.. frankly speaking, a lot of thing that keep me to be in the sad situation. yes, I pain and it's hurt me so much.. wish i could believe on those who really understands me, but the pain inside me separates from this thought and inspite of knowing the fact my conscience don't allow me to believe ,so, no one can understand me!!!...

sOmeOne. please take me somewhere i never been. far far away. PLEASE!!! sometimes i wish i could go back in time and meet myself as a kid. i wish i'm still a kid. NO broken heart, no painful tears, only a wounded knee but a kiss from mom and dad makes everything okay T_T

first thing first td jwb quiz my lovely lecturer, sir Aziha.. so damn difficult. tension sudah. then time balik, FS plak wat I sakit hati yang tersangat2. ok, fine.. if you're not single and available but x payahla nak tunjuk2 depan I yg you tu tgh bergayut ngn gf you. what the........... saje nk buat I jealous? ok, fine. I admit that I jealous. but for what? whateverlah. kejap je kan hati you boley berubah. but it's okay, it's all my fault.... “Saya masih tunggu jawapan dari awak.” “Awak, terima kasih sebab sudi sukakan saya. Tapi, jujur saya cakap saya tak dapat terima awak.” “Lecturer tu?” “Awak tau kan, siapa yang ada dalam hati saya selama ni. Dan bukan mudah saya nak buang semua tu.” “Saya faham tapi berbaloi ke awak buat semua tu?” “Saya bahagia dengan perasaan saya. Mencintai tu tak semestinya memiliki kan? Saya sedar kadang-kadang perasaan saya selalu berubah-ubah, kadang saya okay, kadang tak okay, tapi ini la saya walaupun saya cuba untuk lupakan dia, tapi...

Should've ignored what I felt What I felt deep in my heart Coz now I don't even know How to start letting you go Oh yeah.. It hurts so bad I can't explain I should've just ran away Beside you I just can't stay Coz I know that we won't be More than friends it's clear to see Oh yeah... Coz in your heart is where she'll be Without words you have shown me what love is Without words your name is what my heart screams It breaks me just to know that you really love her so I'll try my best that it won't show Without words you have made me much pain Without words feels like I have drowned in the rain And I was such a fool to believe that there was really you and me Without saying a word I'll pretend that i don't hear My heart whenever you're near And though it doesn't subside Whenever our worlds collide I know... Someday I'll learn to ...

Oh Tuhan Tolonglah diriku Aku sungguh menginginkan dia Tuk mencintaiku Dan mendampingiku Di dalam hidupku ini... mr.fallinginlove ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Kalau tanya apa cita cita I dulu, I jawab I nak jadi lawyer. its so typical, kalau tanya budak budak sekarang pon tu jek yang dorg tau jawab. or kalau paling advanced pon dorg nanti jawab nak jadi doktor, polis,or cikgu. masa I dah besar sikit, I mula minat dengan designing. more to graphic designing. walaupon I tak sedar diri yang I memang tak pandai sangat lukis. ingat lagi masa I darjah satu, I menangis kat sekolah sebab cikgu suroh lukis I tak reti lukis. tp bila I amik art as subjek tambahan time SPM dlu, I got A kot… pernah jugak i bercita cita nak jadi penulis novel. nak jadi ala ala JK Rowling ke, ala ala stephanie meyer ke, ala ala Fauziah Ashari ke, ala ala Anis Ayuni ke. Even sampai sekarang pun I still fikir nk jadi author.. and I dah siapkan stu novel.. and I memang nk sangat publish it.. but not now la kot.. maybe after I finish my study.. and sekarang dah besar panjang org tanya cita cita apa, I shall stay dumb even by now. i just don't know. maybe should let t...