Life is Nothing Without Love

It's not that I have feelings towards you or jealous, hell no. tp agak2 la kn. smpai your gf ckp you ckp kt dia you serabut ngn i. what the..... what did i do? I x pernah pun terhegeh-hegeh, tergedik-gedik ngn you. ape yg serabut sgt? or awek you tu saje je reka cerita? And thanks, you're the *I'm not sure yg ke berapa, did prove to me that guys, they are all just the same. *okay maybe most of the guys. But somehow, it's a good thing for me. From time to time, I get to know guys better. Till sometimes I doubt every single things that they say. And I wonder, am I going to find the REAL one for me in future? I mean, the one that really cares about me and treats me well and and will love me with all his heart? :/ But yeah, still, long way to go. Live my life to the fullest :D p/s : I'm not going to fall for anyone ever again. But, mr.fallinginlove.. I will love you till forever and ever. and I wonder, do you (s***) still read my blog, like you used to and do you stil...

hye peeps!!! i'm in real mood to blog cause i have tonnes to write,i mean to type it here. eventhough i know i will cut short in the middle,forgetting every single words that browse through my mind since morning on what shall i write here. typical me. and oh do you know my current obsession now? I'm obsessed with Kim Hyun Joong. i'm too much obsessed with this dude. but i tell you,he is nowhere compared to mario maurer? ohmaigod i can't believe i get so excited talking about him. i'm so much indulge by chocolate indulgence these few days i might throw off now. ps: told you i will end the post halfway,i've forgotten already. screw me.

Yes!!! i'm officially SINGLE and AVAILABLE.. cewah.. cam nk promote diri je kn. well, what I want to share today is actually cite yg mmg dr sem lps I nk share. tp blm ade kesempatan. but, now I dah ade kesempatan. first thing first, I wanna ask u.. what do u feel if all of your friend has their own partner or boyfriennd but you are not. you are single? mesti la rsa nk ade boyfriend jugak kn. sometimes we just have to happy to see others happy with their life but ape plak kata hati? yes, hati yg selalu meronta-ronta menginginkn seseorg. even tak penting pun utk ada boyfriend, but ble dah hari2 tgk kwn baik dating, gayut and whatsoever.. sometime, rsa iri hati mula tumbuh. i mean, kdg2 rsa mcm xde privacy langsung dgn kwn tu sb everytime kuar nk kne ade bf dia. yes, utk dia..bf dia tu mmg pnting smpai pergi mne2 pun mesti nk kne bwk or ada skali. if xde,this life is so boring... but what about me.? dorg x pernah rsa ape yg I rse. dorg x prnah tau ape yg I rse. I dah cube nk ...

yEs, jahatnye dOrg sume nih. siapa dorg ni biarlah rahsia. but i feel so hurt because of them. senang kan nak buat orang happy, tapi orang tak tau, dalam hati ni, sakit macam dah potong potong hati ni jadi 15 kerat sampai tak boleh nak cantum balik. Ermmm...Damn! ingat i bodoh ke?! uit tetibe je nak mara ni apsal. huhu. mmg wat i hot chili pepers sekarang ..huh. n dalam2 hot i nih i sedih sangat-sangat n kecewa coz de orang yang wat onar psal i. geram tahap gaban da tau x.. sekarang ni rasa nak tumbuk2 dinding pon ade. tapi relak la, xpasal2 tangan i yang bengkak-bengkak xley lak nak menaip. hahahah. rasa xnak la kecoh-kecoh tapi rasa hati ni nak berbicara di dalam blog ni. rasa tenang kot tulis kat lam blog nih. lain orang lain cara die nak luahkan rasa pe yang terpendam . tapi i nak tulis gak kat blog ni xkire. hahahah....ermmmm. geram n benci!!!. arghhh. nape la benda ni jadi kat i. n nape la "die" ley masuk dalam dunia i. aish!. i benci 'die' sangat.. why ...

ensem kan Incik Ariz ni?? haha. picture nie I curik dari Fb die. hikhikhik. Sorry Ariz Lufias. saya minat awak! >.<" so, yang tu je la I nak share ari nih. ~they said that in this world there are two kind of happiness. one kind of happiness is you only know after the moment has passed,and the other is a happiness that you feel in the moment. that happiness you feel in the moment is so precious. they also say that the memories of this kinda of happiness that can stay with you and enlighten your life.maybe we can turn today into the kind of happiness you feel in the moment,so that we can remember this happiness for the rest of our life.

Today was the best precious feeling that i ever had even it takes just about a minute. :-) I'm very happy today to be with him for presenting an assignment. sape lg if not FS. before we start our presentation, kteorg prepare nk ckp ape. and for that I have to pretend like everything is ok. but actually I ignore je my feeling sb I tau I sbnrnye bkn sukakan dia. beside that, ade something yg I x sdr and I buat. I x perasan yg kwn FS perasan I perhatikan FS masa FS nk duduk tmpat dia. ye la, FS duduk dpn I sblh kwn dia tu. then tetibe kwn dia ckp "tergoda la tu.." what the.... haha. so funny kn. MR.FALLINGINLOVE,.I miss yOu kot, but what can I do???

before 1 a.m td dia dtg uma I. him again. FS. haha.. but mlm ni mood dia sgt baik. so i'm happy cause I see sparks fly whenever he smile :) the end-

How hard we chase for what we desire but things end up running away and away from us? It's about love thingy. today is the day of HER. ok, fine. she is your girlfriend. so what? i'm tiring with all this mess. sms's, gayut tepon, usik2 nme tu.. ape lg.. sume support la you with her. sometimes I wish I can go and scream to them and say "stop toying with my feeling and whatsoever." mmg dia usik theoldman a.k.a sang arjUna but it's like just want to hurting me. You know, I mean they sengaja usik theoldman when I'm around them. it's really killing me kot. I don't know how my facial expression in that time but its really annoying me. trus xde mood bile sebut2 sal gf theoldman. This is fate. What The Greatest Creator has planned for me, that's how my life should goes on. No point to regret. So why don't I just pray, sit back and relax, let go and let Allah takes over the thing for me. Anyhow, He knows I've given whatever it takes to kee...

salam. hey readers, today i'm happy because FS just show me that he use my lanyard.. well, eventhough it's not so expensive but at least he appreciate it right? but he's not use that to wear his matric card.. as i told before, he already bought new lanyard for his matric card.. he use my lanyard to hang his home key.. huhu.. that's all for today ;)

well, today I want tell a story about "lanyard". lanyard? haha.. sounds funny but it's so mean. actually, last wednesday, I has bought a lanyard for sang arjUna. y? sbb dia xde tali utk pkai kad matrik dia. kad matrik tu dia smpan kt dlm purse je kot. then when every lecturer tnye dia bru nk terhegeh-hegeh keluarkan... and disebbkn itu, I belikan dia lanyard. x cntik and mahal mane pun but I really ikhlas. actually, I just nk suruh kwn I je yg bg and let him guess sape yg bg but then yesterday I dapat tau dia dah beli lanyard angry bird warne hijau.. then I make a decision to bg kt dia face to face. nothing special pun sb first2 we talk about out project assignment and then dia tnye "ade apa2 lg?" then I ckp "ade" then dia ckp "ape?" I jwb "nah, amiklah." smbil bg. dia tnye "ape ni?" and then I ckp nnti bkak la.. x lawa tp ikhlas.." spontaneous je kot sb I dah x tau nk ckp ape.. then we end our conversation... hmm....

well, not all people understand what we experience. sometimes we seem ok, but only God knows. sometimes we hurt, sick, miserable and sad. I'am alone...........though i share everything but no one undrstand me. no one can understand me, my pain that is hidden behind my smile, and unsaid words that's hidden in my heart. why it is so.....:-( i wish to die at times cause i have problems and no one can fix or understand me so i wish to die cause i think thats the easier way. everyone wants me to understand them, but no one can understand me! I'm really2 miss my old friend. my Seri Iskandar's friends. yes, I really need you. miss M.. miss A.. frankly speaking, a lot of thing that keep me to be in the sad situation. yes, I pain and it's hurt me so much.. wish i could believe on those who really understands me, but the pain inside me separates from this thought and inspite of knowing the fact my conscience don't allow me to believe ,so, no one can understand me!!!...

sOmeOne. please take me somewhere i never been. far far away. PLEASE!!! sometimes i wish i could go back in time and meet myself as a kid. i wish i'm still a kid. NO broken heart, no painful tears, only a wounded knee but a kiss from mom and dad makes everything okay T_T

first thing first td jwb quiz my lovely lecturer, sir Aziha.. so damn difficult. tension sudah. then time balik, FS plak wat I sakit hati yang tersangat2. ok, fine.. if you're not single and available but x payahla nak tunjuk2 depan I yg you tu tgh bergayut ngn gf you. what the........... saje nk buat I jealous? ok, fine. I admit that I jealous. but for what? whateverlah. kejap je kan hati you boley berubah. but it's okay, it's all my fault.... “Saya masih tunggu jawapan dari awak.” “Awak, terima kasih sebab sudi sukakan saya. Tapi, jujur saya cakap saya tak dapat terima awak.” “Lecturer tu?” “Awak tau kan, siapa yang ada dalam hati saya selama ni. Dan bukan mudah saya nak buang semua tu.” “Saya faham tapi berbaloi ke awak buat semua tu?” “Saya bahagia dengan perasaan saya. Mencintai tu tak semestinya memiliki kan? Saya sedar kadang-kadang perasaan saya selalu berubah-ubah, kadang saya okay, kadang tak okay, tapi ini la saya walaupun saya cuba untuk lupakan dia, tapi...