Life is Nothing Without Love

Jika RINDUKAN SESEORANG , PEJAMKANLAH MATA dan UCAPKANLAH : " Ya Allah Aku rindukannya keranaMu Ya Allah , Jauhkanlah daku dari perkara yang membuatkan aku lupa kepadaMu . Aku semakin mengerti, ‘JARAK’ ini bukan untuk menghukumku..tetapi ‘JARAK’ ini untuk MENJAGA aku dan dia..

CANTIK tue UNIVERSAL... if you got a beauty face but your heart is like @#$%, it doesn't mean anything... unless you are around people that can't judge you properly... or you are around people that think they are beautiful like you. i mean people that same level like you *eventhough*. but inner beauty yg plg penting. cara kita cakap, cara jalan, cara bergaul. even the way we laugh pon orang boleh adore :D

Assalamualaikum. hey peps!!! today i learn about TAKDIR. Miss Sab ade ckp psal takdir.. like, if kte da usaha banyak mane skalipun, but kte tak dapat sebanyak mane yg kte usaha tu, thats call takdir... mmg dah ditakdirkan kta dapat banyak tu.. so kta kne la redha.....for example, if kte dah study bagai nk rak, then hrp result gempak but then result kte tak ok.. tu pun takdir,, so kne la redha.. dah memang tetulissss.... so, same jgak la kn dengan mr.fallinginlove.. what i believe before.. if it meant to be, so it will be.  ilysm~

hello peps!! pernah dengar tak lagu nih? mesti la pernah kan. dah lme jgk kot lagu nih.. but i wanna to tell you that everytime i hear this song, i think of mr.fallinginlove. banyak sangat benda yang buat i ingat kat dia everytime hear this song. Supermasive Black Hole. dlu, time dia pkai experia, he use this song as his ringtone kot. and after that i use this song for my presentation and dia nampak enjoy sangat timei present sb lagu nih. and then time i kat dalam bilik dia, tetibe ringtone hanset dia bunyi lagu nih. pastu i ternampak plak sape yg call time tu. it was his mum.. haha.. dah dia letak atas meja btol2 depan i kot. after that i use this song for montaj yang i buat khas utk bdk2 kelas i. other than that, there are SO MANY thing that reminds me on him everytime i hear this song. terlalu banyak. if nak cite banyak2 t borink plak kn.. so, thats all for today... hehe.. *saje nk update sb bru lps dengar lgu ni kt my blackberry :) what! tak up-to-date? just so you know, kat my bb...

Assalamualaikum. hye peps!!! haha.. am i in the right track? back to the title of this entry.. and YES, i want to RESIT MUET. why? as a languange brush up. this does not sound hilarious at all cause I never gonna give up to improve my english language. *take note mr.fallinginlove* hehe. actually I am considering of repeating MUET. I need a better grade that would put me at a more secure place tapi bila pikir balik sanggup ke nak repeat? well, tadi i dah goggling psal MUET for this year. well, I just can choose to sit it on July or October. but I prefer October coz if i take July, takut clash with my final exam plus I actually nk take it kat sekolah jerk. sek dkt uma I. SMK Kubang Kerian. :)as calon persendirian. hikhik~and one more thing, i hope i will get better result that will help me to achieve my dreamsssssssss..... lecturertobe.insyaAllah. mr.fllinginlove, you are my inspiration. always ^__^

knal tak dia nih? good looking kn. plus cute and he reminds me on someone. someone special for me long time ago. but past is past. chillll~ well, ari ni i have a crush with KAMAL ARIF ^_^ td i follow dia kt twitter.. then tetibe dpt 1 new request nk follow i.. and it's from HIM... hee~ we are following each other kt twitter.. sayangnye mr.fallinginlove xde twitter and dia pernah mention that dia memang tak nak bertwitter... :( just so you know, girl like me is always have a lot of crush but my heart is only belong to one guy. and that guy is YOU ;)mr.fallinginlove~

know him? handsome right?haha.. nama : Samuel Zylgwyn Heckenbücker lahir : 22 julai 1988 ( 24 tahun ) keturunan : germany+indonesia Hey guys! hurm...i have a new crush... Samuel Zylgwyn Heckenbucker.. I almost half way die to say his name fluently and end up saying "sa-mu-el-zy-lg arghh whatever!"I wonder how his teacher call out his name.I'll bet if he go to school here most of the teacher will be like "hey how come your parent give you such a weird name?"Hahahhaa. i like him since i watched a drama on tv9, Anugerah.. well, his acting is not bad.. good enough to make me crush on him.. he looks very damn sweet and romantic.. stop bout my new crush one.. hehehehe... currently listening to Cinta Dalam Hati by Ungu.. the lyric realy touches my heart.. at least for some reason.. don't wish to elaborate bout it.. i bet u wont understand me..

pipit sama pipit, enggang sama enggang. pandai sama pandai... kn.. whatever. but seriously sy sgt terasa dgn both of them. they always spent time together. ALWAYS. well, maybe I x sekepala ngn both of them and dats why they more comfortable together. i'm only exist when salah soroang dari dorg takde.. but when we together, i feel like not important at all. well, if kuar jenjalan pun dorg jalan berdua je. saya memang tak layak kot kawan dengan dorang. sometimes I feel that i can't endure this kind of feeling but what can i do? dari semlepas lagi kot I terasa sangat dengan dorg, but dorg tak pernah tahu pun....

yes, i hepi ble ngn dia sebab i bley lupekan all the thing that burden my brain all this time.. dah tak ingat dah sal ape jadi ngn bdk2 kelas and whatsoever. kami dalam dunia kami sendiri. hahaha. gramatis tak? please la.. ayat da macam baru lepas jumpe boyfriend je kan.. opssss.... boyfriend tu kn kwn lelaki.. so btol la tuuuu... but this is more than fren sb i dah anggap dia cm adik i.. adik. bukan anak ikan ye.. after one year kteorg tak jumpe then now we jmpe balik.. dia dah banyak berubah. dah tak macam dulu.. i mean, dulu dia still lg cam budak-budak. kanak-kanak ribena but now dah more mature. cara cakap da lain,cara gurau pun dah lain.. well, paling kelakar skali i naik motor ngn dia kot sbb dia nak anta i balik and dia cakap ni first time dia naik moto ngn prmpuan... omg... tp memang dia dah lain sangat2. tak tau nak cakap camne. mungkin perubahan dari budak sekolah ke budak politeknik yang buat dia lain kot... well, hope our relationship will last till forever.. even dah tak ...

today i was spend my time with my friend to watch a movie. well, takde movie yang menarik kot. then we choose "the means war". i like the hero in this movie, ChrisPine. handsome. ;) but another hero pun handsome and sweet. plot: CIA agents and best friends FDR Foster (Chris Pine) and Tuck Henson (Tom Hardy) are deployed to Hong Kong to prevent international criminal Heinrich from acquiring a weapon of mass destruction, but the mission goes awry, resulting in the death of Heinrich's brother Jonas and Heinrich swearing revenge against them. For their protection, their boss, Collins (Angela Bassett), assigns them to desk duty upon returning to America. FDR is a womanizer, whose cover is that he's a cruise ship captain, while Tuck, who presents himself as a travel agent, has an ex-wife, Katie (Abigail Spencer), and a son, Joe (John Paul Ruttan). After seeing a commercial for online dating, Tuck decides to sign himself up and is paired with Lauren Scott (Reese Wi...

i wish i could put all my thought in a jar. It’s kind of sad that I have learned to deal with things like this. Sometimes, being strong means being heartless. i think to much. thinking to much causes me to over think and analyze think i don't want to deal with. it gets to much for me to handle. i shut my self down and go to war with myself. i'm tired. i'm sick of being tired. i don't like who i'm but i have to live with it. i don't know what i'm doing. i'm sick of feeling sad. sick of wanting things and people i can't have. i want to be at peace with myself for once. to be happy and think about things that doesn't send me over the edge. mr.fallinginlove , i jealous again and again.. tapi I baru perasan, dekat wall dia dan I ada gambar yang sama. I mean, dekat wall I, ada gambar I dengan lelaki and vice versa dengan dia. okay, fine! kira seri lah. no need to jealous. but i'm just tired. tired of putting in more effort than I receive. i...

SAYA RINDU SANGAT KAT DIA.. RINDU.. RINDU.. RINDU.. I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!!!!! SIR.. I REALLY MISS YOU. DID YOU STILL REMEMBER ME? I ALWAYS WONDER IF YOU STILL REMEMBER ME ORR NOT... I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU. WELL, EVERY POSITION KAT KAMPUS TU REMIND ME OF YOU. YOU ARE UNDENIABLE. YES. UNDENIABLE. EVERY WALK THAT I TAKE ALONG THE CAMPUS IS REMIND ME OF YOU. IT'S NOT BECAUSE I LOVE YOU. BUT I REALLY MISS YOU AS MY LOVELY LECTURER. MY SWEETEST LECTURER EVER. I'M SO SORRY, I CAN'T PERFORM WELL IN YOUR SUBJECT. I CAN'T BE YOUR BEST STUDENT AS YOU WISH BUT JUST SO YOU KNOW, I'M TRY REALLY HARD TO BE THE BEST IN FRONT OF YOU JUST BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO NOTICE ME. TO REMEMBER ME. I REALLY NEED YOU. I WISH YOU WERE HERE THIS SEMESTER COZ I WANT TO PERFORM WELL IN YOUR CLASS, I WANT TO SHOW YOU THAT I CAN GET A+ IN YOUR SUBJECT. BUT SIR DAH TINGGALKAN SAYA. SAYA RNDU NAK DENGAR LECTURE SIR. SEKARANG NI PERGI KELAS PUN DAH TAK SEMANGAT MACAM DULU PLUS MACAM-MACAM HAL DAH JADI ...

Sometimes it's really hard to understand...but I am so used to doing things on my own, making my own decision, sleep whenever I feel like to, stay up all night doing whatever I want to do, run a marathon with a twisted ankle till the end as if my life depends on it, call somebody if I feel like talking, turn off my phone if I want to be alone. Fancy somebody and un-fancy them without hurting anybody but myself. It's a really completely "self center-ed" single person's world.

I know I don't have the prettiest face for you to look at and I don't have the skinniest waist for you to hold, but I promise you, I have the biggest heart to love you. ## The first time you fall in love it changes you life forever and no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away

LOSS, yes, i'm losing him. my favourite lecturer, the best lecturer ever since i studied here.. but I sincerely hope he’s doing really well wherever he is! tipu la kot if i kata tak sedih langsung bila dapat tau dia dah benti jadi lecturer. rasa kehilangan sangat-sangat sebab i memang suka sangat ngn dia. i mean suka sb dia best.. sporting, caring, and whatsoever. he is the best lecturer ever that i found in D*****. dorg kata, i mean bdk laki kls i kata dia benti jadi lecturer sb dah dapat posting yang lebey bagus.. jd engineer.... no wonder la subject yang kteorang rasa dia akn ajar dia tak ajar... and one more thing, sorang lecturer ajar dua subjek.. and lecturer tu actually i tak suka kot... well, as people said ape yang kta tak nak tu la yang kita akan dapat.. so skunk ni i sedang merasanyeeeeee...... and tak semua benda yang kita nak kita akan dapat.. macam i nak sangat lecturer kesayangan i tu ajar but then tetiba dapat tau dia da benti.. sedih bukan kepalang kot.... omg.. ...

3 day in D***** pejam celik, pejam celik, dah tiga hari di tanah D. Tuhan je yang tau betapa rindunye I pada my parents, siblings and my home. well, people say home sweet home kn.. even kt mana pun kita pergi, mesti rumah jugak tempat yang paling selesa. tak dinfikan sejak pindah i memang tak suka negeri cik siti wan kembang tu but even i tak suka negeri tu, negeri yang i dok skunk ni lg la i tak suka. well, hari ni first class untuk part5. alhamdulillah, pointer sem lepas ade penigkatan and this sem i must to study more hard than before. ye la kn, sume orang mesti ade target masing-masing kan, same goes to me and untuk mencapai target itu, i must lebih gigih berusaha. just so you know, tadi or untuk every monday, i just have 2 class... 8.00 - 9.50 and 11.15 - 12.05.. and yeah, bila dah sem baru dapat la lecturer baru kn.. and i admit i dah tersangat suka pada lecturer international business i. dia cantik and best. muka dia kn lebey kurang cam eira shazira yang pelakkon tu. one w...

sometimes i put everything aligned well to make life looked perfectly simple and easy. and to wake up with reality that life isn't that perfect and easy is just a total depression. and to rise during the day with a promises and to shut down the day without the promise been fulfilled is another depression. and to pretend you are happy eventhough you know well the chaos that you have put aside for the sake of letting an entry of shine and happiness is yet doesn't work well. and to learn the fact that the person you loved had a beautiful life at present and in future without you and without a single bit of memory spare for you are just very very depressing.

“Awak saya nak mintak maaf kalau saya terpaksa berterus terang dengan awak.” “Teruskan.” “Saya mengaku selama ni saya tak pernah perasan atau lebih tepat lagi saya tak pernah kisah pun awak ada dekat dalam kelas saya.” “Saya pun tak pernah ambik kisah pasal awak.” “Awak bohong.” “Terpulang.” “Saya dah tahu semuanya awak. Dan pada saya apa yang awak rasa semuanya tak masuk akal dan saya tak nak awak letak apa-apa harapan yang tinggi pada saya. Lupakanlah saya awak, sebab..” “Terima kasih farish.”