Life is Nothing Without Love

true love can exist between two persons for some time but it's hard to be there forever. it's certain that there is such a thing as true love in the world but perhaps only a few people are lucky enough to find it. everything keeps changing so do our feelings. true love seems to be a beautiful goal which we keep seeking for but it's hard to reach.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be, your roommate, your neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never have realized your potential, strength, will power of heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of the soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like...

semua da x cam dlu agi.. sume da brubah.. nape ek?

I'm thinking that sometimes I just have to make the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren't ever what I hoped they'd be. Not ever. I'm scared. Completely terrified actually. Scared of what will happen if I see you again & scared of what will happen if I don't.  

yes. i did write about myself yes i did write about you too yes. i did write about us. yes. i have loved you. by every possible plot, with whatever twist, cliches and coincidences, in every imaginable way of saying i love you i have loved you so. yes. they say we should live happily ever after. but, no. that happy ending is not meant for us. yes. i still love you so.

tktau akan kuat atau tak. tp boleh kuat.kalau kental. sy silap.sbb trlalu jujur dgn rasa sndiri akhrnya.sy sndiri.cube ubah takdir. dr mula.mmg ramai menasihat. tp sendiri degil ikut sj kata hati smpai skrng masih ikut mungkin ada sebab. tp akhirnya kini.cuba deny kata hati. akan cuba. semoga brjaya sape suruh sndiri degil akhirnye padan muka sendiri. appreciate la diri sndiri kenangla mereka yg appreciate kamu let go je mereka yg tidak (: hmm.kembali cuba tuk senyum melalui hari ini dan hari esok..

when u tried hard enough to give the best for someone you love, do they really appreciate it? do they realized it..? i kind of jealous to see people's happiness.. having perfect life.. but sometimes not every single thing that we wish for, will be ours.. but what if you really did the best, but still people never see you.. like an invisible person..nobody notice you.. life isn't fair. some people love to accept rather than give.. is this what we called, give and take? a big NO so, i dont really know what i'm trying to say here.. i'm a bit confuse with myself lately.. too much distractions make me feel unneeded. yeah! i never feel needed. man especially, see me as 'easy' like a doll so that they can have me n then dump me whenever they want. ok, i'll stand up! n make u guys realize, i'm a tough girl.n i'm big enuff t let u know that, u cant play with my feelings.. i wont let it happen!seriously!

dear god, i know that i'm not a good person. :( but i'm begging YOU for a help. please open his (mr.fallinginlove) heart and eyes:'( i'm so stuck in here....    

i'm very afraid to activate my fb account. how if i activate and then he remove me as a friend? but don't he know that i'm also a normal human. normal human that has feeling to love and to be love. after the hard day that i was go through, i feel like i'm a negative thinker. think negative about him. i don't know why i was so confident on it... from experience? maybe... "Ya Allah, ku mohon Apa yang telah Kau takdirkan adalah yang terbaik buatku, kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku. Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah, beri kekuatan jua harapan untukku membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya, semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa ini, ku pasrah kepadaMu." mr.fallinginlove, i'm sorry for falling in love with you

'this blog is open to invited readers only' i cant say anything when this word appear. i dont know what to do. is it the step for mr.fallinginlove to avoid me or what? i wouldn't ask for his permission to allow me to access his blog and i wonder... dia dah tau ke i suka kat dia? or rmai sgt stalker, that's y dia just open to invited readers jeeee...

-life isn't a fairytale. no prince charming, no white horse.

i dont know what 2 write... i feel like writing but my words are locked within me... i want 2 let it all out.. now i m writing.. sometime i m happy with it.. sometime i m confused.. sometimes... here and there.. on and off.. hi and bye.. need 2 understand.. understand it!!!

Dia senyap... Mungkin mulut dijahit benang emosi Hati dijerut tali sangsi Jiwa dirantai besi panas berapi... Dia senyap lagi.. Tapi kali ini lama... Marah? atau Sengaja? Aku buntu Dia senyap dan terus senyap.. Aku? Senyap di bibir, tapi hati meronta-ronta Menjerit-jerit.. Tapi, dia tak tahu.. sebab dia senyap... dan aku... terpaksa jua senyap..

...rindu nak gelak-gelak ngan dia. ...rindu ngan macam-macam facial expression dia. ...rindu nak dengar cerita-cerita dia. ...rindu nak senyum kat dia. ...rindu nk gi kelas dia. ...rindu nak tngk dia teaching. rindu semuanya pasal dia.. mr.fallinginlove, knpe la sem akhir bru you ajar kteorg? :(

Kosong hidupku tanpa mu Cermin ku membayangkan bayanganmu Pameran kaseh ku layu Tiada dirimu tiada untukku Tinggalkanku dalam anganku Sakitku mencintaimu Deritaku merinduimu Lemah hati menginginkanmu Ya Allah maha pemurah dan maha pencipta Terima kasih atas pertemuan antara aku dan dia Jika nyata bukan aku pemilik tulang rusuknya Kikiskanlah pesonanya dari kedua mata

Away from Facebook......................

Result exam dah keluar, and i'm a bit dissapointed dgn result. I wish i can do better. but takdelah kena repeat paper. Alhamdulillah.. xdpat dean list pun xpe. janji lulus all the subject. :) i'll make sure next sems, work harder. something happened =(, how could one of my friend mention his name in my status... sape? Mr fallinginlove la... OMG.. I feel like i'm gonna die.. you know what, that guy was online and see it... oh gosh!!! i don't know what to do n now i'm deactivate my facebook account. i will activate it when i was prepare for it and I'm not gonna contact with him anymore about a few day.. maybe.. how can i continue my life without facebook.... hope dia x salah faham :( and hope dia tak perasan psal komen tu. btw, thank you so much sb bg sy A :)

sometimes I miss dat time...~

First thing first, I nk ckp thank you for following my blog yg tak seberapa ni. =) well... ada banyak cerita i nak share with u all. don't know where to start? well, here goes! hold on tight people. =D I nk cakap pasal DIA! mr. falling in love ? haha, I never thought that by adding him will really change my life. it was just a minor crush i had. ala, biasalah macam korang tak pernah kan? hahaha. Masa first time nampak page dia, I macam " OMG..at last i found him..". i add je lah. but honestly, susah okie nk make conversation dgn dia. dunno why tapi dia mcm tak layan sangat strangers. I don't know seriously what is happening to me, but one thing i know is I'm falling. But, we'll see how the progress. At the moment, i want to keep him. =P

DEAR MR.FALLINGINLOVE, DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU? I SURE I MISS YOU A LOT! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

Semenjak kau hadir dalam hidupku Tiada lagi keresahan Kau mengetuk pintu hatiku Tanpa sedar hingga ku izinkan Kau yang bernama cinta Kau yang memberi rasa Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia Hingga aku terasa indah Maaf jikaku tidak sempurna Tika bahagia mula menjelma Bila keyakinan datang merasa Kasih disalut dengan kejujuran Mencintai dirimu Merindui dirimu Memiliki dirimu Hingga akhir hayat bersama kamu Kau yang bernama cinta Kau yang memberi rasa Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia Hingga aku terasa indah Kau yang bernama cinta Hingga aku rasa indah... by: Dakmie OST: Adamaya

pernah tak...korang rasa....kadang2 tu..korang rasa sayang n suka sangat2 kat seseorang..penah tak?? ala... tipu la kalau x pernah kan..mesti penah kan.. sama la dengan i..i sayang dia..i suka giler ngan dia..ase semacammmm... tapi x de la sampai x lalu makan..x sampai mandi x basah...x sampai jalan tak jejak...huhu.. kehidupan tetap normal.cuma.... selalu sgt teringat dia..i still contact ngan dia..cuma.. x de la sampai luah perasaan ape bagai.malu arhh..segann... huu..hurmm... ape ekk nak buat..bgtaw dia??? segan laaaaaaa buat x tahu?? makan ati lak nanti..adoii.. nak buat camne ekk.. runsing lak pala nieee...hurm.. x pe laaa..nanti2 la pikir...baik buat mcm biasa je skrg ni..be his frenx..klu ade jodoh tu ada laaa..(mcm menyerah kalah aje)huuu... dunno..

Sitting alone with no text or call in front of my lappy sometimes makes me miss my friends. I don't have a lot of friends, but I do have some of them that stick to me because we've been together for almost two decades, some of them still stick with me eventhough I've been a jerk to them, some of them stick to me because we are so much incommon but we fight a lot.. but I don't care as long as you guys are still my friend. From my pov, I think friend is someone who likes you because you are YOU. Friends sometimes lie to each other but that doesn't mean the friendship should be stopped. Friends don't judge, don't put bad perception about each other, friends don't hate each other. Friends WILL fight, no matter how good the relation is. But for me, my friends yess they sometimes talked behind my back but as long as they don't cause any trouble upfront that's fine. *but it doesn't mean that I'm going to be cool if somebody talks wrong and bad...

something had happen n i can't stand in this situation anymore.. you annoy me!!!

Guess what i’ve been watching? Yes, it’s non other than the 2009 romantic fantasy drama, “You’re Beautiful”. I can’t believe i am attracted to this drama and i’m sure everyone is. This has got nothing to do with SoEulMates, just that i got to share it with you. From left: Jung Yong Hwa, Park Shin Hye, Jang Geun Suk and Lee Hong Ki and the boy band is called ‘A.N. Jell’. They are really like angels to those girls aka the fans. (I just refresh your memory if you have not seen the drama) Synopsis: The story is about the behind-the-scene of an idol group. Go Mi Nyu (Park Shin Hye) was a sister-to-be aka a nun. She was so pure and knows nothing about the ‘outside’ world. She has a twin bother, Go Mi Nam (Park Shin Hye), who look just like her. One day, a person who called himself her brother’s manager came to find her. He said that her help is urgently needed to replace her brother signing a contract because her brother is in a bad state where nobody should meet him. Und...

"Dalam hatiku ada ingatan yang tidak pernah mati terhadapnya" Amie Naj'la, Jad Imran, Suraya, Zahim and Hani! The story evolved around these 5 people. Amie was supposed to be married to Jad when she was raped by her ex-fiance, Zahim. Being blackmailed by Zahim and his father to shut her mouth. Amie left to Spain and left Jad a week before their marriage. Jad frustrated (sehabis-habisnya) and while he was 'taking a break' from all, he met Suraya. Suraya who was pregnant at tha time tempted to kill herself for getting pregnant out of wedlock. Jad sympthazied with her and married her instead! 5 years later, Amie came back to Malaysia, met with Jad and involved in an accident which left Amie suffering from amnesia. I thought this would be the same as Damya Hanna's Ilham Hati but it's not! Haha! Suspense! But Amie did suffered from amnesia. She couldn't remember the last 5 years that had happened, thinking that she and Jad are getting married soon. So ...

I felt like total dummy talking to him! I guess now is the time to let it go.. huh.. 'be yourself !'.

sometimes life is not going as the way we planned. sometimes life is not meant to be beautiful. sometimes the person you thought loves you, doesn't love you. that's just the way life rolls. Okay, langsung ayat di atas bukan ditujukan kepada I. I always know that life is not what it seems. and I langsung tak kisah kalau something goes wrong. okay, tipulahh kalau saya cakap yang I langsung tak kisah but heck life is unpredictable but understandable. kan? Lari topik kejap walaupun ada berkait>> I have this friend *a really good friend, and I really heart him* told me once that he cannot understand the real meaning of love is. in other words, he's LOVELESS. he thought that when he has a girlfriend, he will understand what love is but it seems like he felt nothing with her. pity his gf lahh kan but my point here is, life is always always unpredictable. you know what love is but sometimes it is just not meant for you. She may be loving him from head to toe, sayang samp...