Life is Nothing Without Love

well, two days to go.. "Lunch hour on Monday ya? I fetch you up at your college" (Mr.fallinginlove, 2012) "Lelaki ni tak sensitif, tahap buat bodo laki lg tinggi dr prmpuan. Try la tnye dia, dah berpunya ke belum. Klau blum,tnye dah jmpe ke blom. Kalau dia cakap xjmpe yang sesuai, memang dia bengap tahap gaban sb tak perasan ko ada hati ngn dia or maybe dia nk tengok reaksi ko. Ko kena berani. Kena buang rsa malu. Tapi kena slow-slow, jgn push sgt. Lelaki tak suka kita push dia. " (Anan, 2012) "Ko kne tanye dia. Walau ape jawapannya sekurangnya kau rsa lega. Kta ni prempuan, nnti sia-sia tunggu. Cakap la berkias dengan dia, kalau dia tak faham gak, kena la daring. Cakap terus. Biar malu sekarang dari terluka kemudian hari. lagipun sampai bila kau nak pendam. smpai bila kau nak lepaskan lelaki-lelaki yang sayangkan kau macam syafiq sebab dia?" (Ain,2012) "Klau btol kau nak tulis surat, boleh je. Kadang-kadang tak semua perkara senang utk dilua...

well, nothing special for today. it just a little bit of nervous and jealousy. lunch hour td i pergi his office. i don't know who is she. maybe his student kot.. and i memalukan diri sendiri lagi sebab madam i****** just come out from his office and suddenly he saw me in front of mr.fallinginlove office. and then she ask me, malu sangat sebab ni kali ketiga dia nmpak i jumpa mr.fallinginlove. then he open mr.fallinginlove nye office then she let him know that i was outside. tak tau nk ckp ape.. i just nk tggu sape yg tgh ckp ngn dia tu keluar and then bru i msk and talk with him.. then bila dah macam tu, nothing much to talk.. other than.. "nk tnye, knp tak relpy msg?" "ade ke?" "ada" "msg ape"" "tengok la" "okay, i will text you." "okay, bye.. " "cantik baju.. merah.." i just gelak and balas "tq" then kol 3.35pm he reply my msg.. i don't know whether that girl in his office until t...

yesterday i just received his text at 3:18 am.. i dont know.. he reply it on that time or it's because of the line problem. well, dah 2 hari line kt cni mcm hape tah.. i smpai gi naik blok atas skali sb nk dpt line to text him.. then tggu dia reply.. but tak relpy2 pun.. time tunggu tu mmg dah cm frust kot.. tp ble i bangun subuh, dia dah reply.. but i reply it back on 7.48 am. then until now he does't reply my text back. WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? takkan line x ok lagi kot.. i reply2 text dgn my friend ok je. okay... whatever... i will waiting without expectation for whatever is next.. i takkan text dia lg.. i will wait until he reply it. smpai hari isnin nnti bru i tnye balik pasal tu. i tak nk nampak i ni hegeh sangat kat dia. coz cara dia tu mcm tak sudi je kot.. takkan la x balas sb i lmbt reply.. or tak balas sb ape yg i tulis tu tah ape2.. tired already lah... penat sgt2. kalau la boleh amik hati ni pastu basuh sampai name dia hilang.. kn bagus...drp asyik rasa penat cmni.......

yes, this is the title for today. td my friend yg jugak kawan sepraktikal cite that she was fell in love with her lecturer.. she even can't wait to continue new semester to see that lecturer.. yes. one word for today is COMPLICATED. i just reliaze that many other people that has the same feeling with me. the feeling of falling in love with our own lecturer. but what can we do? ? ? today, mr.fallinginlove tak post lg psal love tu. da xde lg da "2808 August Love". dia da tau ke ek? one more thing, i just finish text him. but dia x reply pun :( da tido ke? awalnye.. or line mmg x ok. dr smalam line kt cni mmg tak ok. even td pun i text him at 8.30 pm but x smpi sb xde line. then i resend. tp npe dia x reply?????? dia jugak yg ckp if dia x text i, i can text him.. rse cm nk call je.. tp xnk la.. tkut ganggu plak.. psal love tu, i don't know ape maksud ni? love kat sblh kanan and bawah tu love yg bru i letak.. coz yesterday i put three love. 2 red and 1 yellow. bu...

tOday, i'm so happy just because he come to my office.. weeeee..... so happy.. padahal.. biasa-biasa je pun. nothing special.. except he wear my fav baju. purple. dlu pun dia da pernah pkai bju tu and i like it coz i like purple ;) me :oit... buat ape? mr.FIL: buat keje laa... org tnye buat pe, cakap la anta form ke. amik surat ke or whatever. OMG... dia dtg lg kot.. *time i tgh taip nih.. but dia ta perasan sb dia just lalu depan bilik I * and i know what you did kt admin.. 'notis perletakan jawatan sbg pensyarah muda.' i don't know knp dia x msg i psal nk keluar tu. dia lupe ke? atau sje buat-buat lupe?

well, i just arrived at seri iskandar. semua gara2 bli tiket lewat. if tak, esok bru i blik kot.. :( dah la xde org.. ade pun bpe bilik je.. dorg sume mesti balik esok. sedar tak sedar dah nk masuk bulan september. kejap je masa berlalu. lau August love month, september ape plak ek? hehehe. september birthday mr.fallinginlove but i tak plan nk buat apa2 pun sb in that time i dah ada kt dungun. hadiah pun i tak beli.. maybe next time. ble i dah kje.. bley la i blikan hadiah.. jam tangan ke kan.. neck tie ke.. :) so, now dah kira 'lepas raye'.. and i'm waiting for one fine day. bila dia nk text i? or dia dah lupa..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin guys ! Time really flies, i felt like yesterday we started fasting and now we’re in the month of Syawal. Let’s pray that our ibadah during the holy month of Ramadhan will be accepted. My Raya was simple. We celebrated our first day of Raya in Kota Bharu,Kelantan. Because we have moved to kelantan, I not really felt the 'Balik Kampung' fever like before. I mean like 3 years ago. I can’t say to anyone “It took me 8 hours to reach kelantan from kl” or anything along the same line again. Even though for this time i’m from perak but i don’t really feel it. Mood raye tu macam xde je. First day of hari raya all of my mum’s and dad family comes to our house. Like before we always make an open house on the first day of raya. For this year, the menu is just simple… nasi impit, kuah kacang, rendang ayam, kari daging and roti jala.. that’s all. Usually I will make a chocolate cake but for this year I tak sempat. I just arrived this ...

salam readers. how was your day? well. talking about Hari Raya, recently i'm not very excited nk raya. tak tau kenapa.. maybe sb dah tak rse balik kampung mcam dulu kot. ye la, dlu bila balik kampung mesti meriah.. sb sedara mara semua sambut kami sekeluarga. sekarang bila dah duduk kt kampung, macam tak rase nk rye je. klau dulu, every year balik kmpung from kl to kelantan.. but now dah tak rse sume tu.. dah tak rse jalan jauh balik kmpung dengan family.. rindunya msa tu. dah tiga tahun da pindah kt klantan but i still can't adopt kt klantan. everytime balik cuti pun rse sunyi je sebab takde kawan-kawan. boring yang teramat sangat lah ..but whatever is it, i have to "akur" dengan sume nih.. takkan la i xnk move ikut my family semata-mata takley pisah dengan kawan2 kn? insyaAllah, after this i will find a job in kl. hope i dimurahkan rezeki lepas abis degree ni nnti. #i tag that picture to all my friend and tak terkecuali mr.fallinginlove. rye taun ni dia pk...

hey. how was your day? my day was not so great or x great langsung when i go to his office and then i saw the card that i put at his notice board is still there. ya, STILL THERE. i don't know weather he take and read it after that he put it back or he just biarkan kt situ. if i jadi dia, if x suka skalipun, i amik then buang ke kn.. but he is sooooooooooo.. .. . Ya Allah Jika Ia Yang Terbaik Buatku! baikkanlah aku seperti kebaikannya… sabarkanlah aku seperti kesabaran yang dimilikinya.. teguhkanlah niatku seperti niatnya Karana-Mu.. dan biarkan semua mengalir sederhana dan apa adanya.. Ya Allah Jika Ia Yang Terbaik Buatku! pilihkan tempat yang tepat untukku Tuhan.. jauhkan kebodohan dari fikiranku.. biarkan rasa ini terus ada walaupun dalam diam.. dan Jodohkanlah ia denganku atas Kehendak-Mu untuk bersujud pada-Mu...♥ #When you have loved someone deeply, the feeling usually doesn’t go away just because you have broken heart. my friend plak cakap: maybe dia nk uji sejauh mne sec...

05.45 pm Administration Office, UiTM Seri Iskandar.  Me: puan, macam mane dengan permohonan cuti saya? Pn.Asiah: pelajar praktikal mana boleh cuti. berapa hari awak mintak cuti? Me: 3 hari. rabu, khamis, jumaat. Pn.Asiah: wati, ni dia nak cuti tiga hari ni.. boleh ke tak? Kak Wati: kamu praktikal sebulan je kan.. mana boleh amik cuti.. Me: ala.. boleh la puan... Pn. Asiah: saya boleh bagi satu hari je. Me: tak pun macam ni. saya cuti tiga hari tapi nanti saya gnti balik.. Pn.Asiah: okay. if you willing nak ganti balik. Me: so, boleh la cuti? Pn.Asiah: tapi ingat, ganti balik taw.. Me: okay. so nnti sy habis 30.. then nnti saya dtg lagi tiga hari utk minggu berikutnye. Pn.Asiah: okay.. Me: Terima kasih puan. saya balik dula ye.. (salam cium tangan) Pn.Asiah: Ok, selamat hari raya Me: selamat hari raya Pn.Asiah: Duit raya lepas raya saya bagi.. # td dpt duit raya from en. rahaizat aka abg jad, n i bru tau sbnrnye dia tu bujang lg.. huhuhu~

FIRST THING FIRST I'M SO SORRY MR.FALLINGINLOVE FOR TAKING THIS PICTURE WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION. WELL, AS YOU HAS BEEN WRITE , LOVE DOESN'T COME SO EASILY.. BUT IF ONE WHO REALLY LOVE YOU COME TO YOU, WHAT WILL YOU DO? WILL YOU AVOID HER? OR WHAT? today, i feel so happy.. just happy. i found out mr.fallinginlove TWITTER . hmm.. weird. dia pernah cakap kt blog dia that dia xkn buat twitter sb twitter tu "memeluatkan". but nmpknye x memeluatkan sgt da kot.. tweet pun da seribu lbey.. every time nk tweet.. every where nk inform kt tweet.. but today i found out his twitter account PLUS his blog. Just so you know, I dah lame x bka blog dia yg plastersin.blogspot tu coz it's open only to invited reader but today i think he has clean up all his older post and start it over again.. 1 january 2012. like he wanna start a new life. btw, whatever.. in his "new blog" he just write about current issues. he's not talking about his personal life like usual. b...

today i have to check and update file 'Bayaran Ganjaran'.. then i have to write his name in minutes paper.. his name lagi. btw, today i got one information.. that is, every contract lecturer will get 17.5% from their last salary minus caruman bahagian universiti kepada KWSP dan faedah-faedah ke atasnya bagi tiap-tiap bulan genap perkhidmatan after they end their contract. so, best jugak jd lecturer contract ni kn? huhuhu~

today i has been assigned to cut the cuti in e-cuti system. for this task i have to use Electronic Leave Application for Contract Staff (eLACS) to update the attendance of contract staff. and as usual, sambil menyelam minum air kn.. i login to my facebook... suddenly i saw this kt my wall.. it is the card that i put at his notice board yesterday. well, yesterday i have decided to write something and give that card to him. i go to his office and i saw my yellow and red love are not there.. but there's some list name of speaking group for class AD bpe tah.. before this dia ta buat pun mcm tu. if we have speaking, he just tell us in class which group and a day.. tade nye list kt dpn opis cmtu.. btw, finally i dah bg that card and sometimes his action to take a picture and post on his facebook make me feel that he appreciate all of my effort.. *eventhough*  haha.. perasan la plak kn... 1308  August Love... A card... well, have you read it? :) #today, time k...

Two weeks to prepare, come on heart be strong. Yesterday I used to read back all the post, comment, notes and so on of mr.fallinginlove that I kept before. And I found this.. 5 sifat lelaki typical... 1. tak berapa nak sensitif bila masuk bab2 hati dan perasaan 2. ego 3. kadang2 kasar tak bertempat 4. tak suka orang amik berat lebih2 sangat 5. cepat rimas (mr.fallinginlove, January 31, 2010) Number one: it’s sooooooo true. that’s why la slame ni even macam2 hint I bagi.. kwn2 I bagi.. he still x faham that I like him. But sometimes mcm tak logik. Xkan x dpt agak langsung kot.. OR mmg sume student dia perangai mcm I ? Number two: I x nmpk lg ego dia ktne but maybe I x perasan kot. Number three: Kasar? I don’t think so. Number four: Maybe. Number five: Mcm btollllll… ciap halau I kua dr bilik lg kn.. :P For whatever is the verdict I know it would be for the best. almost THREE years surely is a long time to be in love with you.. Where do you think I should go to...

everyday is just like a must to see his name. i mean, everytime i do my work, my task.. i always accidently found his name.. i can't find a way to forget him even for a second. today i has been assigned to update the personal file in file room. there's a lot of letter that i must update to all the lecturers from accaunt faculty, business and management, art and design and also 'akademi pengajian bahasa' APB. there's a lot of letter include the salary and accidently i found mr.fallinginlove salary. and now i know how much his salary.. other than that i also must organize the letter, mc and salary base on their date.. the latest date must be in front of all the date. when i was organize mr.fallinginlove file, i found out his SPM result and his Bachelor Degree result plus his master result. and i'm a bit shock because it's under my expectation.. well, before this i think he has a good grade for his SPM and Degree but when i saw it, it just like i'm the one ...

assalamualaikum.. hey readers!! hari ni i berpeluang mendengar ceramah Nuzul al-Quran, yang disampaikan oleh Ustaz Ahmad Munawir bin Salehuldin, Pengetua Sekolah Darul Tahfiz, Ipoh. Tajuk ceramah hari ni "Keperibadian Ummah Menurut al-Quran. ceramah ni diadakan di Dewan Kuliah al-khawarizmi, Fakulti Pengurusan dan Perniagaan. banyak aspek yang disentuh terutamanya mengenai pandangan mata, sebab runtuhnya institusi rumah tangga dan stress. first thing first ustaz ni cakap pasal kena jaga mata. sebab dari mata turun ke hati dan dari hati ke kata-kata seterusnya perkenalan lepas tu kemesraan and then perjumpaan and lastly perzinaan. ustaz ade jugak sentuh pasal perempuan yang jalan tinggikan bahu kiri dan rendahkan bahu kanan atau lenggang lenggok depan laki tak cium bau syurga. dan lagi satu perempuan yang tak cium bau syurga ialah perempuan yang suka memanjangkan suara jadi nyaring.. atau buat-buat manja.. secondly. is about sebab runtuhnya institusi rumah tangga.. there are thre...

i already put red love at his notice board in front of his office... i susun macam kat atas ni ha.. and tadi I online jap.. suddently gambar ni kua kt wall.. dia post lagi pasal love nih... tjuknye 0808 August Love! Hmm... "Hmm.." tu mcm dia tak suke jeee... i dah xde wane kuning  lg dah.. thats y i bg merah... n merah tu ade maknenye kot..... hee~ ily maybe... heehe so. sekarang ni wall dia dah penuh dengan love-love tu.. :)

WEeeeeeeEE.... :)) Haha, i'm super happy ok. Extraordinary punya happy. Macam dapat duit RM 1 juta! Ok i tipu. Takdelah macam tu kan. Tu dah hiperbola sangat dah kan. hahaha. I memang sedang happy ok. Hati sudah bunga-bunga la. Macam-macam bunga ada tau. Bunga ros, bunga orkid, bunga taik ayam. Eh, tak nak la. Tak wangi. hehe. Bunga raya pun ada tau. Hah, best tak best nya kan. well, td i pergi office dia.. FINALLY.. haha~ dah bpe kali tangguh.. dah bpe kali just duduk kt dpn pintu dia but x ley nk ketuk.. and today at last i dpt jugak ketuk pintu office dia. before that i tgk love i. it's still there. msa ketuk tu dia cakap "yes" then i open that door, i bukak i nmpk dia but dia tak pndang.. pastu i bagi salam... dia pandang. igtkan dia terkejut i ade kt ctu.. tp cm excited plak i dtg blik dia. ye ke? Haha..gedik gila seh. Entah-entah dia rilex jek kan. I jek yang over. Lantak la. Yang penting I happy. haha I’m so happy smpai dia perasan kot.. “Nmpak happy ...

assalamualaikum.. hey readers. how was your day? well, actually i just came back from selangor. met my friends and then company her to port dickson. so, yesterday we breakfasting at pd.. after breafasting we back to selangor and then we go to i-city. nothing there than just taking some picture and i bough something.. for me okay! not for someone or mr.fallinginlove, whereas it is not suitable to give to him.. btw, i have bough kad raya for him.. yellow colour.. yellow again.. muahaha.. i already make a few red love.. but i think i wanna give the bigger one. and i'm not give it tomorrow.. i will give it 0808.. on wednesday.. he will get it.. :) # can't wait for his feedback..  and ore more thing, i think i'm ready to confess. yes, i'm so sure.. just i want to wait for the right time and day.. and place.. because of ramadhan month, maybe it's quit difficult to invite him to breakfasting together.. plus i don;t have any transport but if he willing to pick up and s...

Assalamualaikum readers. today i'm so happy.. why? actually i don't know how to describe it.. fyi, yesterday i pergi once again kt mr.fallinginlove office. i just look at my yellow love that i has put at his notice board but it seems like nothing happen.. i just put another one. so there's three love... and today, first time i on-line kat my office.. i facebooking and then i go to mr.fallinginlove wall.. i'm so surprise bila tengok dia post gambar-gambar love i. actually for the first yellow love lagi dia dah post kt fb but because i tak online so i don't know about it..  " 0108 August Love! Whoever puts this in front of my  office, I just wanna say thank you. I like yellow ;) " you're welcOme.. :) " 0308 August Love! Three yellow hearts. ;) " :) well, I start wonder what will happen if he know that I was the one that put the yellow hearts.. but at the same time i'm so happy... agaknye dia teri...

hey pepsss!!!! looks like i'm very active bloging lately rite? you know what, today .. i'm start using biometric system attandance.. so da xde lagi punch card even though i ni just student practical.. kteorang da start gne thumbprint for masuk and kua keje.. well, bangga jugak ble kteorg student praktikal diberi keistimewaan mcm staf uitm.. da rse cm kje btol2 dah.. and klau la mmg dpt kje btol2 kt cni.. amin.... really hope kot.. hee~ today, for a whole da i need to settle up daily combine detail report from fakulti sains komputer dan matematik, fakulti seni lukis dan seni reka, fakulti perakaunan, fakulti senibina perancangan ukur, fakulti perniagaan dan pengurusan which is my faculty.. hee.. and AKADEMI PENGAJIAN BAHASA... :) i have to check about their status which is why they absent or why they do not thumb print.. their status is gonna be absent or, daily off, restday, daily incomplete, daily overtime or daily lateness... and actually, i have found out that there are...