only friend~
FS, before you I was never so emotional. No one could make me cry and no one made me think so hard. But now the tears flow like rain from the saddest sky there is and my frantic thoughts are tearing me apart. I'm not going to let it end this way. I'm done feeling sorry for myself and I'm done being broken and I'm done letting you make me feel like that at all. I'm going to make myself stronger, no matter how I have to do it, because these thoughts are enough to drive someone insane, and I'm not going to let that be me anymore. I'm taking a stand.
I don’t know why they keep let me down. They fitnah I that I nih hegeh sangat dengan FS. What the ….. if you truly know me, I’m not like that kind of girl.
this is first msg from her:
mmndgkn sy xknl awk, sy xmo gdo.. sy nk awk phm skunk is syafiq now dah ader sy.. dlu okeyla sb dye still sngle.. bkn jns sy mrh2 owg n sy juz nk awk rspect sy as well. mean, awk thu kn spe sy pd syafiq, sy sygkn hbgn sy ngn syafiq.
i x reply.. then dia msg lg...
as salam..
hOp awk xksh sy snd diz msg kt awk..
sy nk tnye awk sumtink.. hOp awk ley jujr ngn sy..
mmg la kte xpnh bckp @ bjumpe kn, but sy byk dgr cite sal awk. herm, sy xtw awk niey jns y cne. cme, ble sy thu y awk pnh rpt dgn my bOy, sy ase agk depressed la. sy snd diz msg bkn nk gado pun, juz nk awk phm mksd sy.. if awk btOl2 knl sy, awk thu sy bkn jns y temper @ sOund2 owg xtntu psal. sy agk frust la ble kte btikam lidah kt fb ari tue.. sy phm, kte xley nk halang owg dr ske spe2 pun y dye nk kn.. tp, sy arp, awk bLoey jjur ngn sy ttg sjauh mne prsaan awk pd syafiq.. sy open jew. n ley sy thu, syafiq pnh lyn awk more than frenz b4 dye ad sy ? sy tnye awk sme niey juz bcOz xnk slh phm antre kte niey bpnjangn.. n sy gk xnk trus2 san bsangka bruk thdp awk
I reply that msg. I tulis sejujur-jujurnya tentang I dengan FS then I tnye dia, cite ape yg dia byk sgt tau psal i.. ye la, bnda tu makes me wonder.. bayangkan, klau xde ombak pokok xkan bergoyang kn? So, ape yg I buat?
then dia rply......
ouh.. tengs cos awk da jujur ngn sy . sy xnk ungkit pape agy.. sb skunk s ngn sy bhgia. n sy pun arp awk bhgia. bykla story y sy dgr, tp sb xnk bnd tue btrusan, so sb tue sy nk tnye awk sndri n snd diz msg kt awk.. sy pun xnk bburuk sngka kt awk.
then I reply I cakap xyah la lg nk sebar2 cite psal I dgn FS mcm dorg buat kt fb aritu. Psal gambar2 yang situapendek tu upload and so on.
then dia reply…..
well, 4 ur info, sy xpnh la ea nk story kt geng2 clazz awk sal awk dgn my love tue.. bkn awk sndri kew y show off sme tue ? ishh, xyh la nk warning2 sy cmniey keyh.. sumpah, i dun like disz ! xyh nk tnjuk garang la ngn sy.. sy xnk dgr anytink dat relate wif u. sb da ckup bsbr ngn gurl mcm awk.. soal lyk kew x utk syafiq, tue soal len sb syafiq sndri y plih spe y dye nk. awk kn lawa, msty rmai agy y nk. sy arp, awk rspect sy keyh n pliss jgn sound sy agy cm msg kt ats tue. sy xske bnd2 y ksar. tQ
what the hell I nk kne respect dia kn? Budak bru umo staun jagung.. stakat si FS tu, berlambak kt tepi jalan.. I memang geram gler kot bila bce msg nih.. then I gtau my friend and my friend ckp…
“DELETE semua msg dari dia. xpayah fikir dah.you have to be strong. kalau jumpa syafiq xpayah pandang langsung. i challenge you for this. boleh buat punya. padamkan nama SARAH from your memory. buat pe nk ingat2.xsedap pn nama tu. tolonglah. for the sake of your loved ones. your parents, your bright future n for you future soulmate. simpan je your caringness for TOTALLY QUALIFIED person. ingat ALLAH byk2. ramai lagi org yg perlukan your tumpuan. IGNORE her! npela rasa insecure sgt minah tu. delete je semua. xpayah memanjangkan cerita dh. rasa mcm berlakon dlm sinetron dh.”
FS, I don't compete. You either want me in your life or you don't. I'm not going to be one of those individuals who put their life on hold while you try and figure it out who you'd rather be with. If you choose her, so the end. But I don’t know why she keeps trying to let me down. Why she keep asking me about about our relationship. If she’s the one that you choose, she must trust you. Whereas, we just friend. I don’t know who actually always make my life miserable.. but I think I know who is “she”. Please girl, if you think you matured enough stop disturbing my life. I have my own life. I have the only man that I love. I love mr.fallinginlove. if you’re chosen to be with FS, it okay and FS is yours.. no need to ask me again and again about our relationship. We are just friend till forever.
I don’t know why they keep let me down. They fitnah I that I nih hegeh sangat dengan FS. What the ….. if you truly know me, I’m not like that kind of girl.
this is first msg from her:
mmndgkn sy xknl awk, sy xmo gdo.. sy nk awk phm skunk is syafiq now dah ader sy.. dlu okeyla sb dye still sngle.. bkn jns sy mrh2 owg n sy juz nk awk rspect sy as well. mean, awk thu kn spe sy pd syafiq, sy sygkn hbgn sy ngn syafiq.
i x reply.. then dia msg lg...
as salam..
hOp awk xksh sy snd diz msg kt awk..
sy nk tnye awk sumtink.. hOp awk ley jujr ngn sy..
mmg la kte xpnh bckp @ bjumpe kn, but sy byk dgr cite sal awk. herm, sy xtw awk niey jns y cne. cme, ble sy thu y awk pnh rpt dgn my bOy, sy ase agk depressed la. sy snd diz msg bkn nk gado pun, juz nk awk phm mksd sy.. if awk btOl2 knl sy, awk thu sy bkn jns y temper @ sOund2 owg xtntu psal. sy agk frust la ble kte btikam lidah kt fb ari tue.. sy phm, kte xley nk halang owg dr ske spe2 pun y dye nk kn.. tp, sy arp, awk bLoey jjur ngn sy ttg sjauh mne prsaan awk pd syafiq.. sy open jew. n ley sy thu, syafiq pnh lyn awk more than frenz b4 dye ad sy ? sy tnye awk sme niey juz bcOz xnk slh phm antre kte niey bpnjangn.. n sy gk xnk trus2 san bsangka bruk thdp awk
I reply that msg. I tulis sejujur-jujurnya tentang I dengan FS then I tnye dia, cite ape yg dia byk sgt tau psal i.. ye la, bnda tu makes me wonder.. bayangkan, klau xde ombak pokok xkan bergoyang kn? So, ape yg I buat?
then dia rply......
ouh.. tengs cos awk da jujur ngn sy . sy xnk ungkit pape agy.. sb skunk s ngn sy bhgia. n sy pun arp awk bhgia. bykla story y sy dgr, tp sb xnk bnd tue btrusan, so sb tue sy nk tnye awk sndri n snd diz msg kt awk.. sy pun xnk bburuk sngka kt awk.
then I reply I cakap xyah la lg nk sebar2 cite psal I dgn FS mcm dorg buat kt fb aritu. Psal gambar2 yang situapendek tu upload and so on.
then dia reply…..
well, 4 ur info, sy xpnh la ea nk story kt geng2 clazz awk sal awk dgn my love tue.. bkn awk sndri kew y show off sme tue ? ishh, xyh la nk warning2 sy cmniey keyh.. sumpah, i dun like disz ! xyh nk tnjuk garang la ngn sy.. sy xnk dgr anytink dat relate wif u. sb da ckup bsbr ngn gurl mcm awk.. soal lyk kew x utk syafiq, tue soal len sb syafiq sndri y plih spe y dye nk. awk kn lawa, msty rmai agy y nk. sy arp, awk rspect sy keyh n pliss jgn sound sy agy cm msg kt ats tue. sy xske bnd2 y ksar. tQ
what the hell I nk kne respect dia kn? Budak bru umo staun jagung.. stakat si FS tu, berlambak kt tepi jalan.. I memang geram gler kot bila bce msg nih.. then I gtau my friend and my friend ckp…
“DELETE semua msg dari dia. xpayah fikir dah.you have to be strong. kalau jumpa syafiq xpayah pandang langsung. i challenge you for this. boleh buat punya. padamkan nama SARAH from your memory. buat pe nk ingat2.xsedap pn nama tu. tolonglah. for the sake of your loved ones. your parents, your bright future n for you future soulmate. simpan je your caringness for TOTALLY QUALIFIED person. ingat ALLAH byk2. ramai lagi org yg perlukan your tumpuan. IGNORE her! npela rasa insecure sgt minah tu. delete je semua. xpayah memanjangkan cerita dh. rasa mcm berlakon dlm sinetron dh.”
FS, I don't compete. You either want me in your life or you don't. I'm not going to be one of those individuals who put their life on hold while you try and figure it out who you'd rather be with. If you choose her, so the end. But I don’t know why she keeps trying to let me down. Why she keep asking me about about our relationship. If she’s the one that you choose, she must trust you. Whereas, we just friend. I don’t know who actually always make my life miserable.. but I think I know who is “she”. Please girl, if you think you matured enough stop disturbing my life. I have my own life. I have the only man that I love. I love mr.fallinginlove. if you’re chosen to be with FS, it okay and FS is yours.. no need to ask me again and again about our relationship. We are just friend till forever.
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