Life is Nothing Without Love

yes. u can block me.. but i don't give a damn... i still can follow u... UIA. cOngrats. hope u're doing really well wherever u're....

well.. tOmorrOw. 090912, 6.45 pm. Off to UiTM Dungun. hellO UiTM Dungun + Good bye UiTM Seri Iskandar.

I've been trying to look for things that fill me up. I've been pushing myself to look for beautiful books to read or to listen to ridiculous music and finish up watching "pretty little liars" series. so, next week.. my class will start.. and i'm still here. perak. i can't go back home because my evaluation form is still with my supervisor and i will come back to the office this Friday to take it plus they invite me for jamuan hari raya + farewell party :) it's going be great.

mr.fallinginlove, thank you so much for that text. Thank God, I'm strong enough to read it. now, i still do not relief. i mean, even though he already know about my feeling, he turn down the lunch meeting, he told me he already have someone and so on but i still hold the things that i wanna give to him. i will give it to him in whatever way. i don't want to keep it. actually, i don't know how to face all this thing because the things are not the same as i have plan. we don’t always get all things to go our way right? honestly i'm very frustrated with that. especially when he turn down the lunch meeting. if you already have someone special, why not we go out just for as lecturer-student. before this i'm very jealous to see you go out with your student and i just wanna be like one of them. but, it's okay. pity me, i'm always hoping for the things that will never happen. and what's now? I CAN'T SLEEP... i'm very sleepy but i can't sleep. now, ...

I go to his room to find out whether he come or not. suddently, omg... my days is always will turn like this.... jumpe dengan madam I****** again. "his not in, maybe he's got a class." and then I just trun bawah and stay there. then tetibe i saw mr.fallinginlove ondaway from library. i'm pretty sure he will use that stairs then i just wait there and after nmpk dia naik I trus panggil. not so loud but he can still hear me. today he keep asking me about the love and card from his secret admirer. he also mention about it before he asking me. he tell that he was so busy plus with the secret admirer with the love, love and so on. he even wanna me say YES or NO.. and i said NO. i don't know what will happen if i say YES. and yeah, it's not a suitable time for me to admit it. I'm so sorry mr.fallinginlove. He is super duper busy. And I don’t know whether the answer of why he not reply my text is “ada text ke?” as usual is accepted or not.. maybe not. I ...

SO ALL THE THINGS THAT I ALREADY PLAN, MUST BE POSTPONE :( the end- tp i pelik kenapa dia x reply my text. sedangkan kawan i buat-buat salah no then dia tak angkat tapi pastu dia bley je call balik. text i tu takkan dia x perasan kot. i ciap buat-buat anta text kosong lagi. but, still xde ape-ape. ape sebenarnye dah jadi? kenapa dia buat macam ni. i risau sangat kot. then i send lg text. ckp suh dia rply, but still tak reply. dia sakit apa? bape hari dia mc? KENAPA DIA TAK REPLY??? Okay! just think positive. *nk sdpkn hati* btw, today i already got my "daily combine detail report" for my attendance using biometric system/ e-jari :) #SAYA MINTA MAAF IF SELAMA NI SAYA SELALU MENYUSAHKAN....... SAYA SEDAR SIAPA SAYA. SAYA JUST PERLUKAN SATU HARI JE. LEPAS TU SAYA JANJI, SAYA TAKKAN KACAU ..... SAMPAI BILA-BILA. I PROMISE. *eventhough itulah perkara yang paling susah untuk saya lakukan*

Stop thinking or anticipating negative outcomes in life. No matter how high you see the chances are for something bad to happen, you must make yourself believe that the possibility of it turning good will be there. And it WILL. InsyaAllah. Dear God, please strengthen my heart and soul to never lose belief in myself. Seandainya berterus terang kepadanya adalah jalan terbaik, permudahkanlah bagiku. semoga apa yang telah dirancang untuk esok akan berjalan lancar. Amin.

the lyric of this song are so meaningful for me. this song really make me miss TEECH AIRIL so much.. he's the one that introduce this song to us. *msa dia pasang lgu ni kt bilik tayangan masa part one dlu, it just like dia yang nyanyi this song.. sambil minta maaf dengan kteorng semua.. time ni mmg i nangis.. TEECH, u're the best lecturer in the world.

Hello! How are you today! I hope this piece finds you well. One thing really bothers me though. That’s when i back form mr.fallinginlove office. I admit I go again to his office just to look up that does he reply my card. Because the card is still there and it make me curious to know why he hang there and then after I look at the card and it’s actually just an envelope without card. There is no card that I give to him. Maybe he kept it or maybe he has throw it. It’s okay if he throw it, I mention this for numerous time I think. Now, anything else that pops up on my mind is why he put all the love that I give on mdam I****** notice board? WHY? It just like an answer but I don’t really get what it mean? He reject me or what? Why not he just throw out that love? Why he must put in others notice board? So, now he just only kept one yellow love or maybe he just throw it. It’s like a game you know.. game that I don’t know how to play and it’s like a question that I don’t know how to solve ...