I think I Iove him but i'm afraid~♥

Have you ever been crush/ obsessed/ love to your lecturer?

Me?

maybE..

OMG!!!


See, when I first met this lecturer whom I have a sort of crush on now, he didn't create a very good impression on me. Mostly because I felt that he was boring and long-winded. He such a bias person who are will praised people that just pretty for him and don’t know, that’s all make me feel so frustrated. As a lecturer, he couldn’t act like that right? Could he be such a hypocrite then? Won’t there be like two side of him.

Time passed and soon I got used to his accent. His teaching style was still not that great but he made the effort to make classes more interesting and fun with his funny antics. From there, I started to like him a bit more everyday. I knew he had the potential for me to like him even more as a teacher. All that was needed was a small spark to light the fire.

I realized that he is very friendly, funny and very approachable guy but he is way up there! In fact, if you ask me, he's too good for his own good. He’s actually so charismatic and he has the nicest smile ever. He has such a benevolent smile, the kind that makes people want smile along with him and give people a reason to be happy. It just makes him seem so happy and bring comfort to people around him.

Then, I realized that every time I saw him talking to other students, especially the girls, I will feel a slight jealousy and whenever I hear people talking behind his back, I would feel disturbed. I feel that I’m being more and more obsessed about him. Everything I do, even doing assignments, I would think of him.

I find myself missing his classes. Every single day, I pray that I would at least see him walk pass my class and whenever he does, I feel unbelievably happy. I find myself looking him up in my free time and with desire to read his blog just to know about him. I think about him all the time and find myself dreaming about him. He would be on my mind 24/7.

I am constantly thinking about him, reading what he's written in his blog and setting up meetings with him. I think and talk about him all the time! I even try to find every opportunity to talk to him, regardless whether it's study-related or personal stuff.

but I have never thought about affairs or anything like that simply because it's all one-sided and I know that i'm not good enough for him. Anyway, it's impossible to let him know about this in whatever way.

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